My wife lost her mom, to cancer at a young age, and she's been thru hell since. It started with, her real father abandoning her mom, and her, for booze, and they ended up on the streets, until she met this stranger, that took her in, and fell in love. He adopted my wife, and took her in, as his own. Had twin girls, then just before the twins turned a year old, she collapsed, and died, just like that, only to discover it was from cancer. My wife had to raise her twin sisters, cause her adoptive dad, was working hard, for a train company, and was never home. And when he was home, he slept half the time, cause he was overtired, but he somehow managed to love, all 3 of his kids, and pull thru, the best way he could.
He regrets not being able to be there, for the kids, when he was needed the most, but he made sure they had a home, clothes, and food on the table. Even if my wife is adopted, he's her real dad, in every way. He has 3 girls, not 2. The point is, losing someone to cancer, and at a young age, is not easy, and is hard to deal with.
So that being said Demi. You need to deal with this personal shit of yours, your own way, the best way you can. I'm not saying things will be the same again, but keep you head up high, and do the best you can, to rebuild your life. The rest should fall into place. Only time will tell.
Oh, and Demi. Don't ever be afraid to talk to you mom, like I tell my wife, all the time. I just believe she's watching over you, and she's listening. Some of us may not accept your apology, and some may do, but the important there here, is that your true to yourself. In the end, lies will destroy.
No matter the outcome of this apology, or, your life. Good luck. In my case, I don't know what to make of your apology quite yet, but that's me being on my guard, and it's nothing personal. I've learned to be on my guard a lot, from being hurt to many times in the past, or seeing people I care about being hurt. So again, time will tell.
Everything I said here, was simply an honest opinion, base on my experience. Nothing was met to be personal, or to hurt anyone. Just so this is clear.
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